this is so exciting! Excited to do more!
I have now officially lost 10 lbs with http://apps.facebook.com/hcgslim/. Has anyone else used it? If not, I highly recommend!
My grandson Ethan and I making memories for both of our futures. I told him… Take a pic with me so that when you are an OLD man you will look at this pic and say.. LOOK at this silly pic of Me and My Gramma that I so loved :) xoxo
SINGLE
So.. Not that I was not single, but.. I was dating. Soon I may have actually said I was in a relationship, but.. not anymore that ended. Oh well, such is life.
I am watching a documentary with Matty called “Paper Heart”. Which is a documentary about what is love. What is love? I certainly do not know anymore. I have no clue what love is. Who has any idea ?
Let me see.. I did a touch of research on a few sites..
Chemical basis
Simplified overview of the chemical basis of love.Main article: Love (scientific views)Biological models of sex tend to view love as a mammalian drive, much like hunger or thirst.[9]Helen Fisher, a leading expert in the topic of love, divides the experience of love into three partly overlapping stages: lust, attraction, and attachment. Lust exposes people to others; romantic attraction encourages people to focus their energy on mating; and attachment involves tolerating the spouse (or indeed the child) long enough to rear a child into infancy.Lust is the initial passionate sexual desire that promotes mating, and involves the increased release of chemicals such as testosterone and estrogen. These effects rarely last more than a few weeks or months. Attraction is the more individualized and romantic desire for a specific candidate for mating, which develops out of lust as commitment to an individual mate forms. Recent studies in neuroscience have indicated that as people fall in love, the brain consistently releases a certain set of chemicals, including pheromones, dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin, which act in a manner similar to amphetamines, stimulating the brain’s pleasure center and leading to side effects such as increased heart rate, loss of appetite and sleep, and an intense feeling of excitement. Research has indicated that this stage generally lasts from one and a half to three years.[10]Since the lust and attraction stages are both considered temporary, a third stage is needed to account for long-term relationships. Attachment is the bonding that promotes relationships lasting for many years and even decades. Attachment is generally based on commitments such as marriage and children, or on mutual friendship based on things like shared interests. It has been linked to higher levels of the chemicals oxytocin and vasopressin to a greater degree than short-term relationships have.[10]Enzo Emanuele and coworkers reported the protein molecule known as the nerve growth factor (NGF) has high levels when people first fall in love, but these return to previous levels after one year. [11]
love
So.. again I am out there. I went to the gym tonight. It felt good to do the hour of cardio, and the weights. Another hour and a half at the gym. It felt good to just have my thoughts, and my Iphone. I listened to music and contemplated that maybe at my age it is impossible to fall in love. Maybe the chemicals aren’t there anymore to allow it to develop? Maybe life is meant for me to be single, so once again I give up. I do not think it is something for me to end up in. I think it is meant that I live my life single and alone. I do not know.
Matt is here this week. I went out to spend some time with my crush today. We talked and it is nice, but we are friends. Nothing more. So that is life. I have tons of friends and yes there are lots of men that are interested in me, but..
As my friends say at work.. “Team Griffo”, They are there, but for whatever reason I do not date them. I have lots of friends, and lots of male friends.
So this little documentary was cute about love and she seemed to have found love at the end. One never knows how things are going to end up though, that is for sure.
I think that my life is all about being quiet, being artsy in some ways, being disorganized in others, and loving all of those that touch my life in some way or the other.
I just heard this on TV..
“You are Strong, You are Powerful, You are a winner.”
A girl that is trying to help herself had those words sticky noted to her mirror so that she can repeat them.
I am all of those things.. and I shall win whether I am with someone or I remain single the rest of my life.
Soo.. that is all of it..
Ciao * kisses * and Single *
Gift of Wine
Wine.. as a gift ? Or was it a blessing ?
So… On Easter Sunday I got a text from a male friend that has been pursuing me for a while. I have been his friend in text’s but that is it. He kept trying to pursuade me to go out with him, but I insisted that I did not think that was a good idea at this time.
He asked what kind of wine I liked. I told him white. He said ok, and he was stopping over to drop the wine off. I told him I did not think that was such a good idea since I had just gotten out of the shower. He said… I will just leave it outside your door. I said.. Ok.. that is fine if you want to. Sooo.. When my son came back from the store there was a bottle of wine outside my door. Very sweet. I texted him thank you.
I have been dating someone, but that is another blog.. to come yet..
I texted the wine deliverer thank you sometime in the afternoon yesterday, and that it was very sweet of him to have given me the wine. He texted me back something about coming over to help me strip. I had said I was going to strip wallpaper. I ignored that comment and he said he wanted to kiss me. I said.. I do not know about that, I do not really know you.
Then I told him about how I was tired of the man that I was dating and how he was treating me. Etc. Part of the problem is that the man that I was dating feels that I am much too heavy for him, that he only dates women that 120 pounds. WTF .. uggggggggg..
So this wine deliverer was texting me that I am not heavy, that I am perfect.. and on and on.
Later I got a text that was very rude saying I was fat.. etc.. I thought he was drunk.. and I asked him such. The answer was. NO I have a wife and she read everything. I really do not know this man so I assumed he was drunk.. said ..whatever good night.. and that was that.
Then my phone rang. I did not know the number, but I answered it. No one said anything. Again it rang ..same number and I answered it. A very ANGRY woman was yelling at me saying.. “IF YOU GO NEAR MY HUSBAND AGAIN I am GOING to RIP your F**KING hair out of YOUR HEAD!” I said.. “WAIT a minute.. HOLD on.. I do not even know who you are, nor who your husband is. Talk to me”. She explained that she was the wine deliverer’s wife. The wine deliverer had told me that he was divorced.. INTERESTING. hmmmmm .. We talked.. and she said that he has been doing this forever. We talked some more. Then he was in the background and she said.. “Kelly” I will call you back. My name is not Kelly so I figured she did not want him to know that she was talking to me. Ugggggg. MEN !!
So.. This morning.. I had a bunch of texts on my phone from her and I told her to call me. We talked for a very long time. We found out that we have mutual friends and I found out that her husband has been cheating on her forever and that he has many other issues and problems and has been in rehab. So sad. I asked her why she does not leave him and she gave me some answer that they had been together forever, etc. I said.. Eventually you are going to have to leave. YOU cannot keep this up. Now she wants to know if we can go for a walk together and that I seem like a very nice person, which I am, but.. I so feel for someone that is going through all of this. I am sure it is not a pleasant way to have to live your life.
So…… Such is life a gift of wine turned into a gift for me, because I found out what a loser he is. Hopefully it was a gift for her too so that she can realise that she needs to get out of that relationship and straighten out her life. That she cannot continually be there to pick up the pieces of his problems and put them onto herself. Such is life I suppose.
Ciao * kisses * and Gifts *
